I'm sitting in a bar in Ballard. Ordering food. It's Sunday, I came back for the Seafood Fest because I volunteered a Friday night pouring beer and got a free meal ticket, that I came back to use today. A friend's band was playing so I stayed to listen as I haven't been out in four years. "Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory" is playing without sound on the screen in the bar and I remember I used to love this movie and make everyone watch it in college. A local celeb is two tables over facing me. I used to come here all the time. Lately, I haven't done much of anything. I've lost myself.
Had another shitty work review, peer reviews said they didn't trust I was capable of getting things done, and people don't feel they can ask me things. Also something about saying stuff isn't my job which I've never done; I don't tend toward entitled though I do tend to panic. Staying late to get work done showed my incompetence, even though it was because I was interrupted all day and stayed to finish work that needed to be done. I wasn't asking for brownie points.
In other parts of my life, I got elected/entrusted with being president of church council and we just hired a new pastor as of today. Someone trusts me.
