Well, when one's hand is finally forced...one does what needs to get done. And in the end, it was only a car load of stuff, but been dreading it for a while. Recycled three boxes worth. Dumped everything into the living room so I had to deal with it. Enjoyed looking through all the photos, and reading old letters, and even old college papers...I was more articulate than I remember. Also, found some old Maria Irene Fornes' scripts from theatre class, do not remember being assigned those at all. Surprised. Anyway, it's all upstairs now, but somehow it's more organized than before, only I can't really get into my closet at the moment. And at one point I was trying to play the drums, so that still has to be moved here; he's bringing the kick by tomorrow, but that's the end of it.
I feel grimy. All the boxes have been in a damp basement for eight (!) years. Many of the photos were sticking together, but otherwise didn't seem damaged in any way. Got a surprising amount done today; I suppose I was focused because I had to be.
I took off today, went for a short walk in the morning: cold and gloomy. Moody. Reminded me of my first winter in Seattle. Was living in a house in Wallingford, it was just before Christmas. Used to walk into the U-District and sit on the floor of the aisles in B. Dalton (I think) it was, and read Dylan Thomas poems. I remember it being cold and gray, and I was working at Toys R Us at South Center, swing shift, so my mornings were free. I had just dropped out of college because I couldn't pay tuition, and I owed back tuition. (I'd somehow talked the school into letting me stay one final quarter without actually paying for it, including room and board. I was ballsy, because I didn't know what else to do. They gave me almost a year to pay it back.) Don't remember if it snowed that year; just cold and gray, like now. I only stayed here for a few months, on April Fool's Day I was offered a job up in Bellingham that had free room and board for six months, so I took it. (My life has changed several times on April Fool's Day; generally for the better. That's why I remember it.)
Here's an attempt to capture the moodiness of the day. Also, the Hellebores were in bloom; about two months early.
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| Heron, December 15/L Herlevi 2015 |
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| Moody, December 15/L Herlevi 2015 |
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| Greenlake, December 15/L Herlevi, 2015 |
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| Early Bloom, December 15/L Herlevi, 2015 |
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