Tired

Been in need of a nap since 9 am. Going to finally take one now; missed choir rehearsal, but got most of my reading done this afternoon.

My doctor, who only gets to say this to me because she's been my doctor for a while and is also a singer, said that I need to start speaking at a higher pitch. She's right of course. How do I begin to do that? I don't want to do it, though it would be better for my throat. In a voice class I took last autumn, my natural resonance was at a higher pitch than how I regularly speak. I know I lowered my pitch in my late teens or early twenties because I wanted to be taken more seriously. I'm not a large person, and I'm female and I was living in a very male-dominated universe, and had always been mocked for looking young and being "girly," (ironically, mostly by girls.) So, there is a lot wrapped up in it. The thing is though, my natural singing pitch is "C" and above (on the treble clef.) It actually is pretty uncomfortable to sing alto. I think my speaking voice is around an "F" or a "G." That's not particularly uncomfortable, but not my natural tone. It would be easier to move away and change it, everyone I know is used to this pitch. I'll have to do it gradually. She suggested I practice the pitch change through singing the words. Maybe I could make my clown speak there until I get used to it? I probably need to go see someone, a speech therapist or a vocal coach. I'm really self-conscious about it. It's physically healthier in the long run, and probably emotionally healthier as well, but emotionally and physically difficult to change.

Rainy

Rainy, rainy, rainy holiday.  Went and shot some outdoor stuff for the project. Hopefully, some of it is useful, we didn't always know what we were doing. Came home, took a nap, and woke up completely disoriented as to what day it was and if I was supposed to be somewhere. I do have a movie ticket for 8 pm, but I think I'll skip it, I have homework for both classes and it's two hours on top of the movie time with the bus commute. And I'll spare all the other movie goers my coughing and nose-blowing displays:) I'm also having a momentary aversion to going outside, or actually doing anything at all.  This is a picture of the sidewalk from earlier today. I will go now.

Memorial Day/L. Herlevi

 

 



Sleepy

sometimes the only thing to cure sleepiness is to take a nap, and I am often sleepy when that is not an option. Counting down the (very  long) hours until that is possible.