The What If

And then there is the existential angst that came up from class (and life, in general) this week, of "Do I want my life to change?"  Because if I act on the things I've been asked to, it will.  What then?  What do I want?  I need to take those first steps anyway, and I do have a choice.  Doing nothing is a choice, but that's not really working.  Yeah?  Yeah.