Quiet

It's so quiet inside, I can hear each flower in the bouquet of daffodils open across the room.  Outside, sunlight and the drone of lawnmowers.  If I open the window, it will smell like summer.  Forecast is for mid-60's today, rain tonight.  When I visit the trees in the morning, the grounds are no worse the wear from the weekend hoards.  Today's crowd is building, quieter, more contemplative, strolling and sitting, and always photographing.  Me, too, but I just like being around the trees, and I suspect that's why others are there as well.  It's peaceful.  Even if there are crowds.

Later, at lunch, the crowds are larger, still, tamer than over the weekend.  The sun comes out a little, I sit in the grass where I can hear people playing music, eating celery and reading Oscar Wilde.

Still more people after 5 pm.  Just keep arriving.  Subdued, but upbeat.

Still struggling with getting out of my own way.

Packed a box, think I got rid of at least 30 things. Crammed the recycling bins and garbage as much as possible...the two that moved out this week didn't actually leave that much, thankfully.  Haven't made any calls.  Mañana.  Maybe I´ll set a timer and do that for a 1/2 hour.  The enormity of things overwhelm me.  It's like looking at an endless wall.  I went to showcase of works in progress last night, original works (12 Minutes Max/On the Boards), I have a friend in it.  I admire anyone that gets out there and produces something new.  I was talking to the person I was sitting with about that, how it seems overwhelming when you look at the big picture, but that the circus workshop finally gave me an entry point to approach it.  He was saying he went to a week-long clown workshop last summer and in the evening the space was free to go into and create in.  And how that seemed intimidating but the workshop leader gave them prompts to work with and suggested using music as well.  And so he went in and worked with that and came up with the start of something. 

You just got to figure out how to start.

Have a tree picture, or two.  Limited time only.

In the Morning/L Herlevi 2014

Early Evening/L Herlevi 2014

Garden's getting watered

Still humid, but cooler and stormy now. (Very humid and warm last night, close to 100%, which is rare for here.) The crow family were outside waiting when I walked out the door this morning. The one, still off in the distance from the others. They must live in one of the trees of a neighbor, I put out some leftovers in the yard and they were watching from a couple rooftops over. There's a hummingbird sitting on a branch outside my window now, getting rained on. It looks like it might be singing, but I can't hear it. Probably looking for insects, there aren't any flowers.

There is a new source of robo-spam, I won't click on it, maybe it will go away.  If the ground isn't too saturated tonight, will attempt to salvage my two tomato plants that are still in those little pots, probably root-bound. Leaves are yellow, but I think that's a deficiency as opposed to a disease, at least I hope so. They've been in those pots almost two months now. I'll go even if it is raining, I need to weed. Really need to weed. This is the kind of weather plants love and the weeds are going nuts.

It's nice to have a bit of free time.

Ate lunch in the community center, it was pretty quiet. Sometimes someone plays the piano, but no one was when I walked in. I thought perhaps that was only during the regular academic year, but then ten minutes before I had to get back to work a student came in and began to play. Beautifully.  I also decided at lunch that it's not working for me to fall asleep every time I sit down, so goals: 1) no caffeine after noon, and 2) try to get to bed by 10:30 pm on most nights. I'd like to get to bed earlier, but trying to be realistic. At any rate, I need to get more sleep.

I think the "sense" a friend tried to talk to me, might have actually lodged inside my head. That could be a good thing. (Others have tried.) I will respect his choice to know me from a distance, if at all. Oh, guess I must've done alright on my final exam, I got an "A" for the quarter.

After gardening and walking home, I'm so tired right now, I might actually fall asleep before 10. (Pulled weeds for over an hour. That's a lot of greenery. Barely made a dent in it.)

Just shy of 6 am

It's Monday, the robin has been singing for a couple of hours now, but the traffic is increasing and it's getting harder to hear. There's a damp coolness from the rain in the air coming thru the open window. I need to buckle down and figure out how I'm gonna get all this work done this week, perhaps I need to use vacation time. The video project is a lot of work, especially since none of us have any experience, I don't have a clue how or where we do the editing. It replaces the speaking exam, but those were pretty simple and painless by comparison, walk in a room, attempt to converse for 5-10 minutes...done.

I like who I am when I'm with the other one, partially it's because the really early awkwardness is gone, and since once we were housemates (I've almost always lived in shared housing, I've had a lot of housemates), he already knows what I'm like when my guards are down, so I don't have to keep them up. I liked who I became when I was around the crush too, which might have something to do with why I imagine I like him. I'm still trying to separate all of that out, but I like him as a person as well.

Time to get on with the day. Darn, I just lost access to the bathroom.

Just tried to spray this perfume sample onto a kleenex so I could sniff it, but missed and hit my arm with a blast. It left an odd scent once I tried to wash it off, not entirely pleasant. For the past couple of days I keep having sparrows fly over to me as if they want something, or want attention. It's odd, but interesting.