Missed connections

There's something weird about meeting a potential housemate publically when you don't know who they are.  It's like a blind date.  And like a blind date, it's probably the wiser place to meet, get a sense of what the other person is like.  But I was supposed to meet someone tonight, a woman, and she never got back to me, but I had tried to describe myself, and then went to this bar.  I sat there checking everyone out that came in trying to guess if one of them was her, which felt weird.  It's possible she was there, but I have no idea.  Missed a birthday for a friend, too.  But I needed to do this.  I don't know, something about the whole energy of the week has been fairly flakey.  That holds for me as well (homework, house searching, ennui.)

I've decided that the reason I keep feeling sick is because I seem to have given myself an ulcer from all the anti-inflammatories I've taken over the past year.  Have presently stopped.  Should go see someone, I suppose, get a real diagnosis:)  Feel slightly better if I've eaten.  Feel like crap if I go for more than about six hours without eating.

Guess I'll work on Miss Julie.  And move boxes so they are less in the way.  I suppose I should start this house thing all over again.  It does feel closer to the wire now.

Oh, she just emailed me.  Guess she wasn't there.  (I answered her 3 days ago in the affirmative that I would meet today at 6, her suggestion.)  Irritated that I missed my friend's birthday for her, but no longer guilty for slight lateness.  This has come up a lot this year: if you agree on a place and a time to meet, doesn't that mean that you are meeting there and then?  It does to me.  At any rate...hope next week is better.  These are not meant to be.